Circle game

Yesterday, my grandfather, who lived next door to me for the past 8 years, died after years of asthma and breathing difficulties.

He was able to be at home until hours before he left this bodily incarnation. My granmma, bless her tender heart, nursed him until there was nothing more she could do. His last moment of consciousness was yesterday morning, when he held gramma's hand and told her he loved her. After that he drifted off to sleep...

A fun-loving, family focussed man, Grampa was very different from me but also so similar.

He loved to tease and joke around, but had a kind and gentle heart. A simple person, of the depression era, he never "wanted" for material things. He loved and cherished  the homemade cards and drawings the kids would make him. Although he was quiet and somewhat private, he did love to entertain close friends and family.  I think I disappointed him greatly when I decided to become a vegetarian 16 years ago; he always wanted to share a "great big steak" with me! :)

Yes, grampa was a gem. He will be greatly missed...

Throughout this experience I have tried to remain fully present and open to the moment.  Acting from my essence rather than my ego has been my goal....Here I am in a true exercise in letting go.....It is what it is.....

Today, my beautiful, wise and sensitive middle son turned 6. He is heartbroken over the loss (as is my daughter); and I wish there was something that I could do to help soothe the hurt... But instead of "fixing" I will just focus on being and loving.

Tommorow, my husband and I "March" forward into year 34.....

And so it goes...